I missed Day 31…
Today is day 32.
It’s funny how I have turned this into my way to cope… my way to hide yet not hide at all from my problems…
How can someone feel so much better with their problems on display and not hidden from sight.?? Not blogging yesterday really hurt my feelings today… I woke up consumed with emotions I didn’t get a chance to release.
I’ve been recklessly angry lately.
My anger is uncontrollable and honestly completely confusing.
the ability to control oneself, in particular one’s emotions and desires or the expression of them in one’s behavior, especially in difficult situations.“Lucy silently struggled for self-control”
I lack this.
I forget other people exist sometimes when I’m consumed with panic.
The only thing that exists when I’m in that state is my own insanity.
The only power I have is the control I have over myself.
Yet how easily I can fly off the handle without some sort of “coping mechanism”
Anger Management maybe..
I’m Still Drug Free if it matters.
1.a person’s essential being that distinguishes them from others, especially considered as the object of introspection or reflexive action.“our alienation from our true selves”
upon reflection of the definitions I could see how maybe I am selfish.
The word “self” comes out of a lot of my sentences.
When I like me I Love me..
When I Don’t I Hate me..
Is all that I need.